By the time I was 47 - yes 47, I was not always the quickest learner - I realised that we are all responsible for what we create in our own lives.  I did some work with Kinesiology about forgiving my mother, and -  lo and behold -  I suddenly found that I didn't get irritated when she phoned...I even quite enjoyed her calls...even made a few calls myself to speak to her.  Later I did some work on loving my mother.  I discovered that in fact my mum embodies many of the spiritual practices that I strived to achieve - -she prayed for all her family every day - and still does.  She seems to have an intrinsic knowledge about herbal medicines and nature's cures, and she lives in the present moment like nobody else I know - and always has done.  She is incredibly self-referral - doesn't need anyone else's approval as long as she does what she feels to be right. These are aspects of my being that I have struggled with. The awful thought struck me "Could my mother be the person that I was trying to become???  Am I in fact my mother??"

Anyway - a few years ago mum came up to visit.  We went along to Lendrick Lodge retreat centre for a fund raising auction.  I had donated a training weekend for auction and Stephen from Lendrick asked me to say a few words about the Touch for Health training.  I suddenly felt that it was important to tell my mum that Ioved her.  So, standing in front of about 60 people and looking directly at my mum, with a deep breath I launched into a few sentences "Mum, you know I used to blame you for all my problems - blah,blah,blah.... and I just want to say to you that I love you very much.."  The auction room was silent - you could have heard a pin drop.  Mum looked at me, fiddled about with her hearing aid for a few moments and said very loudly "WHAT DID YOU SAY?"

Ah well....Perhaps it was more important for me to say those words than for mom to hear them.  I've told her often enough since then.....Yes, she's quite an amazing lady.

Much Love

Stan